30 March 2011


This isn't a "light read"; so if you're not wanting to face the dark and slightly depressing questions I may or may not bring up, than stare at this picture and then google videos of laughing babies.

To paraphrase a famous elf from a famous movie, "a shadow and a threat has been growing in mind". Please don't read this and assume that I've lost my faith; I've simply had these looming questions and doubts, which eventually lead to a much bigger question.

That question being, why do we exist?

I've gotten a few answers, all of which resemble this, taken from the Westminster Catechism:

Q. 1. What is the chief end of man?
A. Man’s chief end is to glorify God, and to enjoy him forever.

Q. 2. What rule hath God given to direct us how we may glorify and enjoy him?
A. The Word of God, which is contained in the Scriptures of the Old and New Testaments, is the only rule to direct us how we may glorify and enjoy him.

Apparently, we exist to glorify our creator. Which to me seems simply selfish. The Bible claims that God is love. If this is true, how is God showing his love to us by placing us in a world that is filled with pain, suffering, and death? If God is all powerful, and combined with his love for us, why does he make (or allow) earthquakes, tsunamis, hurricanes, and other natural disasters to ravage the world, causing death and destruction in their wake? Evidently, the state of the earth is the consequence of the fall of man, tracing back to Adam and Eve falling into temptation and disobeying their creator. So I suppose you could say that natural disasters are a fault of man.

But if God is omniscient, then he would have known that we would use our free will to disobey, and therefore, pain and evil would enter the world. It's all around us - we hurt each other accidentally, we hurt each other on purpose. We have physical pain; our bodies are broken, dying. We feel pain when people we care about are hurt, dying, leaving. Of course there are good things in life. There is beauty and joy. I'm not saying that the good isn't worth dealing with the bad. I'm just saying that if God is everything they say he is, why did he create us, and put us in a violent and turbulent world with inhabitants that are equally violent? If he knew all that would occur, then why? If we hadn't been created, than we wouldn't experience the beauty of this life. But if we hadn't been created, than we wouldn't know the difference, would we?

In speaking to a friend about this issue, her response was "Well God is God. He doesn't have to play by our rules." (Don't read this part, Grandma) That's bull shit, I'm sorry. I'm going to need a better answer than that.

Don't think I'm depressed and unhappy. I'm going through a difficult time, I admit that. But I have many blessings in my life. These are just questions I consider fairly important.


  1. I like ALL your questions. And I agree that God not playing by our rules is a bullshit answer, but I do not think we are supposed to figure it all out. I think part of the point of it all is for us to continue asking questions, seeking answers and growing in who we are and who we want and ought to be.
    I like you and love you like sweet sweet love!

  2. i dont know if you are still wrestling with these questions or not, but here is my quick little response.

    just remember, there is more to life than what we see and experience. there is more to life than this world. even if there was NOTHING good about life on earth, if it was completely terrible, would 80 years on a horrible earth be worth putting up with when you compare it to an eternity in a perfect earth/heaven in the presence of God?

    it is important to remember that our perspective is very skewed. true, there are bad things in the world. people are violent. the earth itself is violent. however, the plan is bigger than just what we can see.

    i love you, and i hope you know that you can always come ask me questions like this. even if i dont know the answers, i will still be honest with you. i love you.


  3. Heather,

    Do you mind me asking if you have found answers to your questions? I have the exact same thoughts. I'm not sure you still check this site, but I hope so.